The path to healing starts with figuring out what you really want out of your life. Forget about all the self-doubt or even self-hatred that may have been engendered by the past. Think about what you wanted to do when you were young, before life started smashed your dreams.
Oftentimes we’re told our dreams just aren’t possible, “you can’t make a living at that.” Well meaning but unfortunate ignorance. That’s not how the universe works. You have to find your passion to survive in this often brutal world. You have to reach the point where you can sit in front of a piece of paper and figure out exactly what you want out of your life, discarding all “practicality” and putting down on paper just what you really want.